I will decay. I don't know when. But I am fully aware of the time I have spent and the unknown time ahead. I have had a relatively easy physical time with life. Mortality, means to me I only have today. Did I serve the people around me? Did I reach out to a person in need of something I could provide? Did I try a reasonable approach for someone to follow and repeat as their example of how to tackle such things? At so many of these I have succeeded. Mostly it is me keeping my mouth shut rather than impose a will of my own on the situation. Nary a mistake has been made on what I would call my modern adult life (post marriage). But rest assured many mistakes have been made prior. Enough to fill me with humility of how much I did not know about people and life. From then until now, it can easily be explained as one foot in front of the other, even with a smile on my face.
I am grateful to have had what I've had. I'm grateful that I was someone my daughter felt safe enough with to grab onto me as we went out into the ocean to swim among the stingrays. Those times for her will live beyond me. I will teach her to drive this year, these times will live beyond me.
