Sounds like something serious is going on. Did something bad happen?

I like Beastiality, Sadism and Necrophillia... Am i flogging a dead horse?

sorry
just reminded of it then

MM

...they must be crazy. He said, he wants to befriend me, which means, he can't possibly know me. Everybody look, see pain, turn away. Because you wear a uniform, a smelly uniform, you think you can be rude to me. But even I, sick and depraved, a traveller to the grave, I would never be you. "

Currently, the way I deal with those feelings is mainly to seek the sensation that God is with me loves me an eternally far cry more passionately than any human being ever could love anyone.

I seek internal signs from God, in deciding how to handle endlessly tangled frustrating confusing problems, especially where there is cunning deception and ruthless selfishness involved.

I believe that God lives through us, experiences what we do, and so has more than a mild vested interest in making us enjoy living.

I hope I'm not just deluded in believing that such a god cares so keenly, but if I am, it sure beats believing that guns and money and ruthless selfishness will destroy everything.