I cut myself worse than usual.My mom saw the bandages on my arm.She says 'What the hell`s wrong witn you?".Then she says your going to end up in a mental hospital is that what you want?The later that day I saw my psych.We talked about the same things.I told him I would try some of his suggestions.He asked me about my sleeping.I told him it was still every other day.He asked me you still can`t get to sleep with all that medication you take.I said no.The truth is I onlytake the meds every other day.It`s weird I wish I could sleep like a normal person but then I miss the days when I am up all night.The other night though I scared myself cause I cut myslef deeper than usual.I got some blood on myself I even had to change my pajamas.The new razor blades I bought worked very well.When my mom saw the bandages she got very angry.She says one day you`ll go to far and you know where you`ll end up.I don`t know how to stop it sometimes is the only thing that makes me feel better.

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        How will you know I`m hurting
        If you cannot see my pain?
        To wear it on my body
        Tells what words cannot explain.
                ~ C. Blount~