...I went through a self-pitying phase a few years ago, which I used to call "Blue monday" ( because I somehow always got a bit down on that day..) and used to regularly tank myself up on cider, and play loads of old tunes/videos that made me even more depressed.....I sort of enjoyed doing it, in my own strange way....I don't bother anymore, as I seem to have snapped out of it.....