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I am so tired.I am exhausted but I still can`t get to sleep.I should not have let my cymbalta run out.I really am not feeling well these days.I feel like all the energy has been sapped from my body.I went to the doctor the other day and he told me my iron was still low even though I`ve been...
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Well the holidays have past and I`m still here hanging on.I guess I`m still a bit up and down but most who know think I`m doing a little bit better.I am really trying some days are still a struggle I won`t lie I`ve been trying to keep busy.I`ve been doing a bit of organizing.Maybe it will...
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I just got back from the movies my big sis took me to a Twilight movie marathon.We just saw Breaking Dawn part 1.My nephews and two of my cousins also went.I had so much fun.It was nice.I told my sis I totally understand why she is so into that stuff.I told her that`s how I feel about...
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Lots of changes have been going on.My doctor changed some of my meds.I am now taking a different antidepressant and he has me taking some of the same ones but in different forms and doses.He also has me on a different schedule to take them.As a result of this I have been mostly sleeping every...
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I have become an auntie again.My little sis had a seven pound baby girl on saturday.They named her after my grandmother that passed away last October.Mommy and baby are doing fine.
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Two days without sleep.I`m feeling horrible.:sick::sick: I went to my new psych today.He is changing my meds once again.I`m kind of nervous about it.He took away some of what I take at night.The only thing that gets me to sleep at night.I did admit to him that I cut myself today.I also told...
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I have not been feeling well.I have not been well in body or in spirit.I`ve been very depressed.The can`t get out of bed depression.This new med thing is not working.I feel worse than ever.I really just hate everything about myself.I wish I could just get over this and get on with my life.I feel...
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I found a new psychiatrist and saw him on tuesday.I was really nervous to tell a new person all about my stuff.I didn`t tell him everything.It takes time to get used to someone new.I did talk about my depression and ocd.Which was difficult because I am very embarrassed about my ocd.I didn`t tell...
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Had a lovely day today.Spent all of the morning doing my favorite thing listening to music.Spent most of the night doing that too.I just love music it`s been that way forever.When we were kids and we had done something good my Mom would take us to music store and buy us any single we wanted.I...
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I can`t sleep again.I find myself sleeping less and less lately.I just feel this sadness creeping further and further inside of me.I feel it burning deep down in my stomach.It fills me with pain and anxiety.I can`t sleep.I can`t breathe.I want to sleep forever because that`s the only time I have...
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I have felt this sadness deep inside it seems like for ages.It`s a deep,dark pit that goes on forever.I feel like I`m trying to dig my way out but keep sinking deeper and deeper.The only way for the sadness to go away for a litte while is to cut or burn or hit.It lets out everything I can`t...
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Today was my last appointment with my psychiatrist.It looks like now I`ll have to find a new one.I am pretty sad about this.I`ve been seeing him for a long time. I guess I`m just sad in general.I found it pretty difficult to get out of bed this morning.I also cut myself and I did a pretty...
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I was thinking about how long I`ve been this way.Depressed I mean.It has been a while.I`ve been better and I`ve been worse.When it was really bad I used to pray for death.I just wanted to be put out of my misery.When my depression and ocd first surfaced I learned how to use self injury as a...
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I really,really tried hard to fight those feelings but I lost.I really tried not to do it.But I did it again.I cut myself again.After I was done I felt like I could breathe again.I felt better.I just keep everything inside.And when it gets to be too much I have to find a way to let it...
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I`ve been feeling so tired and blue.I just can`t seem to make these feelings go away.When I do get to sleep I just don`t want to get out of bed.It just makes me want to hurt myself again and again.I haven`t given in to those feelings though.I haven`t hurt myself lately.I`ve really been trying...
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I`m feeling pretty blue.All I feel like doing is going to bed and never getting out.I wish I could sleep but I am wide awake tonight.I feel so empty and dead inside.I have this hole in my heart that nothing seems to fill.That`s why I cut myself I guess.I cut to feel relief,I cut just to prove...
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Was feeling under the weather on friday.I just couldn`t get out of bed.So I stayed there all day.I guess it my depression getting the best of me. Went to see my psych on wednesday.My last appointment with him will be next month.It`s going to be weird not seeing him anymore.He said he didn`t...
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I cut again.I must have done a pretty good job because when I took off the bandage off it started bleeding again.I mean it really started bleeding.There I was bleeding all over the bathroom floor.I just waited for it to stop again then I cleaned up the bathroom floor.I am just disgusted with...
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I gave in again.I cut myself.I held on for as long as I could.I just had to do it to make those feelings go away.It only works for a little while though.Then I have to do it again.I look at my arm and can`t believe what I`ve done to myself.Why would a person do that to herself?I don`t scream or...
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So here I am It` s 1:50 in the morning.I`m wide awake.:eek:It`s my day to be up.I have a weird sleeping schedule.I only sleep every other day.I wish I could sleep like a normal person.My sister told me you need to_ (fill in the blanks) like a normal person.I told her that ship sailed long...
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