Post Whatever You Are Thinking At This Very Moment

[123xyz]

I keep forgetting to answer this. It's hard to describe. But I'll try. First off, like you say, it;s a question of putting one of the movies last, they are all amazing. But I selected Darjeeling because I do this thing all the time in my brain where I read signs. And the signs say "You're almost done. You're almost there. It's almost the end. You're going to make it, everything's going to be okay." In the early days of seeing signs I'd see that one and think. "Oh awesome! Maybe tonight it'll all be over and I can stop searching and start living!" and then nothing would happen and I'd go into a mini depression and I learned to expect nothing but I couldn;t stop HEARING that sign, I just learned to look at it differently, like God's timeframe is way more expansive that human timeframe and when he projected that I was close, I WAS from his perspective because a thousand years ago I wasn't so close as I am today. Anyway, so the night I saw that film, God kinda said, "You're close, but you gotta do this." And I watched the movie and thought "f***. Soul searching bullshit psychological trapped on a train not trusting one another house being rebuilt now my heart is full nonsense." So the night I saw the movie I kind of realized I was nowhere close in my timeframe and I put on a frowny face and crossed my arms in front of my chest and continued waiting.

Oh god , the signs , the signs ...

So , would it be correct to say personal envy ( ?) interfered with the film as you watched it ? Anyhow , appreciate the reply ...

 

[123xyz]

I hate, hate, hate Jason Schwartzman. I don't like him in anything. I think it's because of his face...



'Life Aquatic' is filled with uber moments!

The acoustic Portuguese Bowie soundtrack.
The subtle humor.
Jeff Goldblum hitting a three-legged dog with a newspaper.
Any scene Willem Dafoe is in.

It's the first movie I bought a Criterion Edition of...

Being a fan of Wes , I ended up buying the Criterion Collection releases of "Tenenbaums" , "Darjeeling" & "Bottle Rocket".


I don't know why I don't care for Jason Schwartzmann on screen. He's not bad as an ensemble player in "Darjeeling" but came across ( as the character, Max) in "Rushmore" as smug/exceedingly punchable and solely that. I also disliked him in the TV series (?) where he's a writer/private eye/etc. Why , 123xyz, why ? Hmmm ... ?

 

[CrystalGeezer]

Oh god , the signs , the signs ...

So , would it be correct to say personal envy ( ?) interfered with the film as you watched it ? Anyhow , appreciate the reply ...

Yes, most definitely. I still love the movie.

 

[realitybites]

I think rescue fantasies might stem from childhood stories? Maybe? I dunno, but they occupy pretty much 80% of even my symbolic modus operandi. I hear a voice that says "I'm looking for you." Then the rest of the time I try to rationalize symbolically why that is important, but at the end of the day, I just wanna be rescued. It's pretty simple. I think men feel that way too to an extent, but they want their moms to rescue them from having to be men so they can stay a boy forever and live with the girls in the childhood fantasy that everything is going to be okay because we're going to be saved from whatever is tormenting us at the moment. The entire crux of Christianity has banked on that single thought for ages. It's a money maker. Television programs too, Hoarders, What Not To Wear, 16 and Pregnant, Rehab shows. People like to tune in to watch people being saved, it comforts a root emptiness.

I never realized that boys wanting to be rescued by their mothers, was a part of that same rescue fantasy dynamic that women have. Surely grown men still have it somewhere then. Maybe they are better at suppressing it--especially because society frowns upon them admitting to any weakness or need to be taken care of/protected. Interesting.

Yeah the blog here is not intuitive at ALL. I used Blogger for years and loved it, had no fan base though, but this was before facebook. You can nab a lot of friends and friends of friends if you network your blog on facebook, like how people will post on Instagram and a facebook update happens automatically. My blog was kind of like a symbolic diary that didn;t relate to anyone, I was just getting the ideas out, so I didn;t really want anyone reading it, to be honest, but I helped a girl who went HUGE with her blog. I followed her on blogger, she had a job and in her spare time blogged about design stuff, kind of like mocoloco, but the kitschy/girly version. Her name is Design Sponge. She asked me to help her design a template for her blog and update her logo, she was using a standard blogger template. I did that and while she didn;t use my ideas, she gave my ideas to another designer who tweaked and implimented them. At any rate, she started tiny, just her ideas on design, cute kitchens and cork boards and stuff. Now she;s HUGE, has a following and it;s her job just to scan the design world for cute stuff and talk about it. You could easily do that, start off small, then as your readership grows and the comments pour in, you'll get ideas for new posts and it could be a lot of fun. Or a huge baby that you have to feed constantly and get sick of, but it's worth thinking about.

That is a lot to consider. I dunno if I am into marketing myself. I like writing and do welcome anyone to read my blog. But to promote myself feels out of character for me. I need a manager. Are you busy? Haha.

 

[DAVIE]

a quick dunk of the tea bag, and that's it. It's like drinking plain, hot water

I always have to do that when my girlfriend's nan comes around. It's weird! It's not even tea!

Since your a nice member and Crystal has said your blog is awesome, I'm going to read your stuff

I think men feel that way too to an extent, but they want their moms to rescue them from having to be men so they can stay a boy forever

I'm going to remain an insecure boy whatever my Mum does Growing up is for realists!

 

[realitybites]

I always have to do that when my girlfriend's nan comes around. It's weird! It's not even tea!

Since your a nice member and Crystal has said your blog is awesome, I'm going to read your stuff

Thanks. I hope you find it somewhat amusing and see the sarcasm in it. I fear that it isn't real obvious because I don't use a lot of qualifiers such as emoticons and hahas and hehes.

I'm going to remain an insecure boy whatever my Mum does Growing up is for realists!

I bet your mum loves you bunches!

 

[realitybites]

I'm wondering what drugs I must have been on when I posted this nonsense.

 

[CrystalGeezer]

Bored. I flipped the channels and watched Stuck On You, Puss in Boots, the first part of the last Harry Potter movie and a couple seconds of the Matrix and made a tiny movie and I'm still bored.

Maybe I should go see a real movie at the theater.

 

[Skylarker]

I'm wondering what drugs I must have been on when I posted this nonsense.

Don't be so hard on yourself. I have many EXTREMELY cringe worthy posts from years gone by, both here and elsewhere, that I wish I could delete from existence. Lots of people do. The important thing is the ability to self-edit and to look back and re-assess things you've written and things you've said. If you can see that you've evolved as a conveyor of your thoughts, that's what counts...not endless self-flagellation for things you can't take back.

If I still wrote now the way I did four or five years ago, when I was pretty new to the internet, I'd jump in the river. And maybe in another five years I'll feel the same way about how I write now. And that's OK. You should just do your best at any given moment and not worry about the past or the future; they don't exist except as intangible concepts.

 

[realitybites]

Don't be so hard on yourself. I have many EXTREMELY cringe worthy posts from years gone by, both here and elsewhere, that I wish I could delete from existence. Lots of people do. The important thing is the ability to self-edit and to look back and re-assess things you've written and things you've said. If you can see that you've evolved as a conveyor of your thoughts, that's what counts...not endless self-flagellation for things you can't take back.

If I still wrote now the way I did four or five years ago, when I was pretty new to the internet, I'd jump in the river. And maybe in another five years I'll feel the same way about how I write now. And that's OK. You should just do your best at any given moment and not worry about the past or the future; they don't exist except as intangible concepts.

That is some really sound advice. Ya, I hardly recognize that person from six years ago. I sound like a 16 year old girl trapped in a thirty-something's body. But, you're right. It is good to look back and see how far I've grown. I don't feel like I need anyone's approval anymore. Though oddly, I probably said the same thing back then.

 

[CrystalGeezer]

I'm pretty sure I'm ovulating. Got babies on the brain. All babies and puppies and kittens = SQUEEEEEEEEE.

They just announced that Autism is linked to the sperm of men over 40. I'm assuming they;ve ruled out that VIAGRA causes autism, right? Because old men have been having babies for centuries and autism is an epidemic that has spiked on the same curve as the availability of performance-enhancing drugs for men.

 

[realitybites]

I'm pretty sure I'm ovulating. Got babies on the brain. All babies and puppies and kittens = SQUEEEEEEEEE.

They just announced that Autism is linked to the sperm of men over 40. I'm assuming they;ve ruled out that VIAGRA causes autism, right? Because old men have been having babies for centuries and autism is an epidemic that has spiked on the same curve as the availability of performance-enhancing drugs for men.

Ah the torch has been passed from the anti-vaccine weirdos to the anti-male performance drug lobby. Certainly there are many older men who have fathered children with autism who have never taken those drugs. Just as there are thousands of children who have autism who never received an MMR vaccine.

 

[CrystalGeezer]

Ah the torch has been passed from the anti-vaccine weirdos to the anti-male performance drug lobby. Certainly there are many older men who have fathered children with autism who have never taken those drugs. Just as there are thousands of children who have autism who never received an MMR vaccine.

Not yet, I just drew that conclusion. The study released just suggests that Autism and schizophrenia come from the sperm, not the egg.

 

[realitybites]

Not yet, I just drew that conclusion. The study released just suggests that Autism and schizophrenia come from the sperm, not the egg.

Finally something is not blamed on the mother.

So is your clock ticking? Do you want children? You're still under thirty aren't you?

 

[CrystalGeezer]

Finally something is not blamed on the mother.

So is your clock ticking? Do you want children? You're still under thirty aren't you?

I think I'm too old, 37. I've got my ovaries and they're all functioning and normal, but my sister and mom and grandma all went through menopause before 40 so it would be dangerous I think. Still, get those yearnings. I think I'll be "that lady" who mothers an odd assortment of animals. Or maybe mothers a man. But not like that creepy couple on Strange Obsessions who nursed her husband with breast milk every day. People can be really f***ing weird, you gotta be careful!

 

[realitybites]

I think I'm too old, 37. I've got my ovaries and they're all functioning and normal, but my sister and mom and grandma all went through menopause before 40 so it would be dangerous I think. Still, get those yearnings. I think I'll be "that lady" who mothers an odd assortment of animals. Or maybe mothers a man. But not like that creepy couple on Strange Obsessions who nursed her husband with breast milk every day. People can be really f***ing weird, you gotta be careful!

I thought you were in your twenties for some reason. Drinking breast milk as an adult? Yuck. I don't really understand where fetishes come from.

 

[Nightingale]

I'm training to be an assistant at a fancy salon, and I'm scared shitless because I'm running out of time and I need to perfect my blow drying technique. Granted, I JUST started practicing on a real human head instead of a fake one, but it's harder than it looks.

 

[DAVIE]

They just announced that Autism is linked to the sperm of men over 40

Wow...its took them a long time to find that out! Interesting stuff! Crystal since you said you want to mother someone, I invite you to be my second mum hehe!

I've been going through all the Suede and Throwing Muses songs and I've deleted nearly the whole lot. As they say, tastes do change....

I've had a nice day today. Went around the woods and went to the castle by myself. Found a pond on my travels. It was quite spritual...but I wish I didn't bring my phone and mp3 with me, that ruined it. It's like as if I can't live without them and I'm probably right. Our generation can't cope without them!
If the internet closed down, it would be the end of the world for us. I'm sure

 

[CrystalGeezer]

Wow...its took them a long time to find that out! Interesting stuff! Crystal since you said you want to mother someone, I invite you to be my second mum hehe!

I've been going through all the Suede and Throwing Muses songs and I've deleted nearly the whole lot. As they say, tastes do change....

I've had a nice day today. Went around the woods and went to the castle by myself. Found a pond on my travels. It was quite spritual...but I wish I didn't bring my phone and mp3 with me, that ruined it. It's like as if I can't live without them and I'm probably right. Our generation can't cope without them!
If the internet closed down, it would be the end of the world for us. I'm sure

I'll be your mom, Davie. We can watch a True Blood marathon together on the couch and I'll cover your eyes during the sex scenes.

 

[CrystalGeezer]

This baby pic got me all squeeee yesterday. Why aren't these liddle sweethearts legal in America?