The Frustration Renders Me Hateful

I can`t sleep again.Surprise,surprise.I lay there in the dark and close my eyes but there they are .....the thoughts that twist and turn inside my head.They won`t let me rest or relax.

I feel so bad these days that I miss my manic times.At least I got alot of s**t done. Right now everything feels like it take an enormous effort and nothing seems worth it.I just want to sleep,sleep,sleep. I am so wound up and stressed. We had to drop my health insurance because the premiums are too high.So I might have to see different doctors and I am super worried if my meds will be covered.This has stressed me out to no end.It actually made me physically ill.I feel I am unable to cope.I want to put my fist through a window or pull my hair out.I want to hurt myself really bad to make these thoughts go away.I want to go away

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If I could start again a million miles away.......

Hurt~Johnny Cash version