I'm a long time visitor to this site. I don't post very often anymore but I've had several guises over the years and I've met many other (mostly long-gone) posters here, in the U.S. and the U.K. Commendable use of the word 'vapid' there, but avatars aren't really meant to mean or add anything so that's a bit of a redundant thing to say, if you ask me.
I got the general gist of your reply, but to be truly honest it didn't read particularly well and I got quite bored mid-way through. I'm not a doctor or any kind of healthcare professional but in my opinion your (not always grammatically correct) use of big words is an exercise in trying to portray yourself as someone above everyone else, and in this case trying to denote your sanity to anyone else here who reads it. It's not really working.
You claim not to have any mental health issues, but judging by the length and content of your posts, the frequency to which you write and the refusal to just let go of the same old shit, I would recommend a trip to your GP. This isn't the way it has to be...!!